Digging Deeper

My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear…  I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning. Psalm 38:4, 6

I am free.  Free from the tethers that for so long bound me to this world.  I understand now, how to be “in it, not of it”.  I am free from the fear of what’s to come when I leave this place.  That fear has been replaced by anticipation.  I am free of these things because God has removed my guilt.

If God has removed my guilt, who can bring it back?  No one.  He has forgotten my wrongs.   They are gone.  I am free.

That’s been one of the toughest concepts ever for me to wrap my little brain around.  Jesus paid the debt not just for the people of His time, but for the people of All time.

He was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds, we are healed. Isaiah 53:5

There are times when my guilt tries to resurface.  Something reminds me of my ugliness and mocks me with it.  Satan asks me how I can be so bold as to think I can be forgiven with this list of sins to my credit.  He asks me what makes me think that God has a place for someone as vile as me.

When this happens, I know I need to spend time in the Word.  I need to be reminded that God is greater than my doubt.  I need to remind myself that I’ve been stripped of my ugliness and clothed in His Grace.

Father, thank You for the grace You give me daily.  Help me reject doubt when it tries to creep into my heart.

Read: 1 Timothy 1:12-17

Jeanne Roberts